View Full Version : My darling Kita's gone forever
30th May 2010, 04:16 PM
I don't know how to begin to write this. I know technically I don't own Kita anymore, but she is still my baby to me.
This morning I received a phone call to say that this morning my precious girl was PTS due to acute grass sickness. Apparently for the past two days she had pulled away from the rest of the herd, and was spending all her time around the water trough. Late last night she began pouring mucous from her nose, and this morning the vet confirmed it was acute grass sickness. They decided to have her PTS.
I can't help but feel I betrayed her. Although her new home seemed to be the perfect place for her, she was obviously not cut out for 24/7 turnout. I should have brought her home. :( My poor baby. Why is everything going so wrong???
I love you so much my precious Kita, I am so very very sorry. I'll love you forever baby girl. :crying:
30th May 2010, 04:20 PM
Hayley I'm devasted for you. Don't feel guilty, you made the right decision at the time and there was no way of knowing this would happen. xxx
30th May 2010, 04:25 PM
Hayley, I'm not sure what to say.
Not your fault, you know that.
Big hugs hun. x
30th May 2010, 04:31 PM
Hayley it was NOT your fault, please dont go down that route!!
One of ours got grass sickness quite a few years ago, back then it was even less understood then it is now, it's horrible and comes on so quick
It's not your fault at all, poor Kita
RIP lovely xxxxxxxxx
30th May 2010, 04:32 PM
Hayley I really am sorry :(
Please don't blame yourself because I'm pretty sure that everyone will agree with me that you did everything you could for that mare! She was in the best hands with you and you gave her everything!
30th May 2010, 04:38 PM
In no way is this your fault. Please dont feel guilty.
Im so sorry to hear she has gone ... such sad news. Will be thinking of you xxx
RIP Kita xxx
30th May 2010, 04:40 PM
I just saw this on facebook and had to come on to find out what happened. I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry Hayley. You absolutely can't blame yourself. It could happen to any horse at any farm. You gave her a brilliant life after her rough start and she will love you for that. Big big hugs xxxxx
30th May 2010, 04:46 PM
Im so so sorry to read this Hayley, but dont blame yourself grass sickness is not down to bad managment, its one of those horrible things which cant be prevented.
RIP Kita, im so sorry xxxxxxx
30th May 2010, 04:51 PM
Oh my word I'm so so sorry Hayley. Ditto everyone else, you did everything you could for her xxxxx
30th May 2010, 05:00 PM
Oh Hayley! I cannot believe it, you poor poor thing. Its just so sad, gs cannot be prevented and it is still a mystery. Please do not blame yourself, she knew you loved her and thats the main thing, she had a happy life and thats the main thing huge hugs x x x x
My Crazy Clan
30th May 2010, 05:02 PM
I am so so sorry Hayley, it wasn't your fault, she knew how much you loved her with out a doubt and you were a truly wondering owner to her, RIP Kita xxxxxxxxxxxx
30th May 2010, 05:10 PM
Hayley Im so sorry, I am really gutted for you, please dont blame yourself as others have said its not something you cant prevent or predict, just one of those horrid things unfortunately.
RIP Kita xx
30th May 2010, 05:37 PM
I am so sorry to hear this but exactly as other have said you have done nothing wrong, grass sickness is something that can't be prevented.
Hope you are ok x
R.I.P Kita x
30th May 2010, 05:54 PM
Soooooo sorry hayley. What an awful shock for you. xxxxxxxx
30th May 2010, 06:44 PM
like the others, i am so sorry for you. Ive had my fair share of these threads so i know that these words tend to wash over at first but Grass sickness could have come on at any time in any field with no trigger known. It wasn't being out 24/7 or bad management on their part, it was a perfect home and they have plenty of happy mares to prove it. That was the best place possible for her but clearly fate found her time was up.
There is nothing anyone could have done. It wont make you feel better and im so sorry, you have us all with you.
30th May 2010, 07:09 PM
I am so sorry Hayley. Huuge hugs to you ((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))
30th May 2010, 08:09 PM
so sorry to hear this. Such a shock to loose a horse so quickly.
hugs to you xxxx
30th May 2010, 08:12 PM
Oh **** Hayley, I am so sorry poor Kita,
R.I.P you gorgeous girl you will be missed xxxxx
30th May 2010, 08:39 PM
Hayley, my heart goes out to you, I feel devastated for you.
You gave Kita an amazing couple of years and you sent her to horsey paradise. You did everything right by her. She is at peace now.
So, so sorry.
30th May 2010, 08:42 PM
Oh gosh, I'm so so sorry. whatever you do dont blame yourself, you could never have known it was going to happen.
30th May 2010, 08:51 PM
This is just awful, please dont blame yourself, you were doing the best thing for her and im sure she knew that.
Big hugs xxxx
30th May 2010, 09:08 PM
You can't hold yourself accountable, it's just not anyones fault.
So sorry of your loss. RIP beautiful Kita.
30th May 2010, 09:13 PM
Hayley I have not got any words.. I am so so sorry.. Ditto Sasca, it wasn't a case of anyone or anything being at fault.. Its one of those awful things that just seems to happen with no real cause..
You in no way betrayed that little mare - you did the exact right thing by her - you knew she wasn't happy to be a ridden horse so you let her go to a happy, established loving herd and home and its just tragic that this has happened now.
All my love
RIP Kita, run free now and find peace xxx
30th May 2010, 10:08 PM
it is easiyer said than done but please do not blame yourself, this could have happened even if she had stayed with you, its just one of those things. It was her time to go and see my Bo Bo and many other lovely horses we have lost on here in recent times. I truly am so sorry for your loss. x
30th May 2010, 10:15 PM
Hayley I've just seen this :shocked: I'm absolutely devastated for you :( I just don't know what to say. I didn't realise grass sickness could cause such a fast deterioration, I have only ever known it to take months to get to that stage.
You can't blame yourself and the only good thing to come out of this is that Kita will run free forever. Neither you nor she will ever have to worry about her being mistreated again, by anyone. She will always be with you in your heart and your Mum will take good care of her x
RIP Nikita x
30th May 2010, 10:31 PM
rip stunning gil xxx
dont blame yourself i have posted on your grass sickness topic as well
its such a werd and complecated thing and just seams to happen some get it others dont it was nothing to do with you so dont beat yourself up xxxxx
30th May 2010, 10:41 PM
Oh my goodness Hayley, i am so sorry.
But please dont blame yourself.
30th May 2010, 10:46 PM
Oh Hayley I am so so sorry, please don't blame yourself.
RIP Kita xxxx
31st May 2010, 05:55 AM
Poor girl :(
Please don't blame yourself- it isn't your fault and I'm sure Kita would not want you to feel guilty!
R.I.P Kita xx
31st May 2010, 07:30 AM
I'm just so sorry....
My pm says it all, but please do not blame yourself - and tell your little girl not to lead my old boy astray, he's an eye for the pretty ladies
Hugest hugs - God bless you sweetheart.
31st May 2010, 08:50 AM
So sorry to hear that. RIP Kita. X
Tarka the horse
31st May 2010, 09:45 AM
Oh goodness Hayley, words fail me. What a horrible, horrible thing :( But to echo everyone else, there is nothing that can be done for grass sickness. It is, very sadly, just something that happens and happens very quickly. It's not down to bad management. You chose the best home possible for her and it was a GREAT home for her. You are in no way to blame for this AT ALL.
I know what it's like to think that it's your fault and to blame yourself for a horse leaving this life, but it helps no one and nothing. Accidents and cr4p happen and we have to accept that it happens unfortunately....but you did NOTHING WRONG! Nothing! You did everything right for that horse....everything.
Sending you all the love in the world sweetheart xxxx
31st May 2010, 10:02 AM
So sorry for your loss. RIP Kita
31st May 2010, 11:29 AM
I'm so sorry Hayley, what a terrible shock that must have been :(
RIP Kita x
31st May 2010, 03:48 PM
i'm so sorry hayley to hear this. I dont get on much these days and have just seen this.
Grass sickness is an awfull thing which we unfortunatley still dont know enough about, but please beleive us all when we tell you this is not your fault, you gave Kita all the love and attention she deserved and always had her best interests at heart, and she knows it. Apple is right when she says that some are just to good to be among us....
31st May 2010, 03:50 PM
Please don't blame yourself hun as you did nothing wrong. She is not in pain anymore, or even in fear of what people want of her. She has been adored by you and had gone to a great home, so the last couple of years she has known kindness and love.
She will play and run forever free! And Storm died young so will look out for her and show her the way xxx
Horse Mad Mum
31st May 2010, 03:54 PM
aww Hayley thats just so awful poor beautiful girl,RIP little one lots of love HMM XX
31st May 2010, 04:17 PM
Thak you so much for all your kind, reassuring replies. Now that I am over the initial shock, I can see she may have been susceptible to it where ever she was. I read about some of the factors thought to increase the chances of grass sickness. One was moving to new pasture. Another was stress, and another being between 2 and 7 years of age. She was kind of high risk from that point of view.
In a way, it means I can stop worrying about her now. At least where she is now, she is not stressed out, or in pain, or afraid, and her skin is not going to be flaring up.
31st May 2010, 04:25 PM
I'm so sorry to hear this hayley... please don't beat yourself up. it is one of those horrible conditions that comes on so fast and we really don't know enough about. A horse at our yard diet of it a few years ago and he was in NONE of those high risk groups you described... its just fate.
It is very sad but as you say at least you don't haveto worry about her any more.
Run free precious girl. RIP Kita xxx
31st May 2010, 05:35 PM
Oh no poor girlie, grass sickness is a really odd and tricky illness theres little anyone can do about it or anything much you can do to prevent it
31st May 2010, 07:00 PM
Oh, no, no. Oh Hayley. That is terrible. I am so, so sorry.
But you didn't let her down, you know. This is a much more common problem than people realise and you just can't predict it. I've only known about it for a couple of years and it scared the hell out of me when I first learnt what it was.
It is so sad that it has turned out this way. Kita will now never be passed from pillar to post, she will never have to be sold on if her last owner's circumstances change, but I suppose this is of very little consolation to you at the moment.
I am gutted.
31st May 2010, 07:45 PM
It's a cruel blow after everything you've been through, bless you, i know how that feels, take care & don't blame yourself.
RIP lovely Kita x
31st May 2010, 08:29 PM
ohh my darling sooo sorry xxxx rip beautifull girl x
31st May 2010, 09:32 PM
oh that is so sad, I'm so sorry.. It's not your fault though, its just one of those awful things that can happen to anyone. Like you say, at least she is safe now xx
Poppy and Harmony
31st May 2010, 10:33 PM
I'm really sorry to hear this ZM :(
It's one of the horrible diseases you can't really prevent
*massive hugs* RIP Kita :(
1st June 2010, 07:29 AM
So sorry to be reading this she was a beautiful girl and you did the very best for her.
Huge ((((((((((hugs)))))))))) for you babe.
RIP Kita xxxxxxx
1st June 2010, 11:11 AM
So sorry. Don't blame yourself, you gave her a good life.
1st June 2010, 10:16 PM
I am so sorry to hear this tragic news.
My heart goes out to you Hayley.
Run Free Kita.
You maybe gone but never forgotten sweetheart.
2nd June 2010, 12:38 PM
Have just seen this Hayley, im so sorry to hear this. RIP Kita xx
2nd June 2010, 03:03 PM
so so sorry to hear that this sweet little mare has gone...just remember the good times you both had together...huge hugs xxxxx
2nd June 2010, 10:12 PM
Oh god Hayley I cant believe this has happened, im so sorry. Please dont blame yourself, you did your absolute best for her and did nothing wrong.
Rest in peace gorgeous girl xx
3rd June 2010, 10:12 AM
So very sorry to hear this. RIP Kita xx Run free over the Bridge
3rd June 2010, 02:44 PM
oh my god i am in utter shock
what a horrid and totally unpredictable thing to happen, i am so sorry.
god knows how you must feel but it was not your fault in any way, just a terrible freakish accident. and not to do with having more time out.
we dont even know why horses get grass sickness....
RIP girlie :(
3rd June 2010, 03:33 PM
I have only just sen this and really couldn't believe it when I saw the title!!
I am so sorry ZM, never ever blame yourself, you gave her the best chance to enjoy her life with you, and then the best ending to her life in her new home, she was obviously very happy being a horse and being with her herd.
It's an awful way to go, but it is no ones fault and she will be sadly missed by everyone i'm sure!
It's true he only takes the best back and only the good die young. She'll go on and enjoy life with all the horses everyone on here has lost throughout the years!!
4th June 2010, 08:53 AM
I am so so sorry to hear this. Big hugs xxxx.
7th June 2010, 10:41 PM
Omg can't believe it what a shock, So sorry for you Hayley but it really isn't your fault (Hugs) xxx
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